Tonight we move the clocks ahead one hour. Since it’s been lighter and lighter lately this means the evenings will be mildly sunny now~

I really dislike how dark it gets during winter here. Once it’s dark, it’s dark, and there’s no way to know how late it is by the darkness outside… it’s disorienting. 6am and 6pm are both the same pitch black emptiness. I think… if it was still warm, but dark, it wouldn’t be so bad, but that’s just not possible since the sun is what produces the light and we’re farther away during the winter months so it’s colder…

I’d like to live somewhere warmer, but I’m discouraged from trying. Warmer climates have so many unfamiliar problems, like hurricanes, earthquakes… it’s not like snowstorms can’t be dangerous but compared to other things it seems almost safe. Safe, but cold.

I don’t know how I’ll fare, continuing to live in this climate. Previously, growing up, I’d think about moving somewhere else after school. The possibility was always there, so it was something to look forward to. But now… this weather will never change. When I say things like, winter is really hard for me, people brush it off, because, “Winter is tough on everyone” or some baseless blanket statement like that. So I don’t bother to mention it much, although it should be evident anyway. Maybe I’m not strong enough, but I don’t know what I’d be working towards.